Progress!

Yesterday I met with my doctor for the first time and after the appointment my hubby and I both agreed that God has blessed us with amazing doctors!! The doctor checked my cat scan and believes that I am a perfect candidate for a simple surgery rather than the "sinus surgery"  for my infection that usually takes place in the hospital that goes along with IV's, anesthesia, and other complications. This simple surgery will take place in his office, outpatient, done in an hour and half, and by day three after this surgery, I am recovered!! WOW! We are now waiting for the office to call to set up the surgery date, which we are aiming for early to mid June. So that goes along with my timetable! I need to heal for a month, then the cochlear implants, so probably July, then a month of healing again, then I go back to "activate"--HEAR!! So I believe we are making progress, might be slow progress, but folks, it is PROGRESS! I told hubby, my wish and prayer is that I can be able to hear on baby's first birthday-September 23rd and I just might get my wish and prayers answered!!

Worship

Before I lost my hearing, I had hearing aids. I could hear music and piano (and even played the piano and at the moment while I am COMPLETELY deaf teaching my 8 year old piano-ask me how-it really is very easy!). I was not able to hear the complete sound of music, so for example, if one were to play a chord on the piano, I would hear maybe one or two notes of that chord, but not the complete sound-does that make sense? As for music, I could never hear the words of the lyrics, but if one were to point to the words as the words are being sung and I put my hand on the boom box, I could understand and FEEL the rhythm of the song. So when it comes to worship in church, I always followed the music director by reading his lips to sing songs and feel whatever music I am able to feel and worship. (and I should tell you, I wondered if any of the music directors that I have had in the past in Church ever realized that I was the only one that noticed that he was not singing the right word or phrase while in worship and noticed he pulled that microphone back just a bit to make sure no one would hear his mistake-ha!) I love to worship through songs, my heart just lifts up in joy and using my hands through sign language just adds to the reflection of my love for Christ. Now that I am deaf, I have to tell you, worship in church is just so.....hard! Really! I don't feel comfortable singing because I can't control how loud or soft I am singing, if there is an unfamiliar song, I don't feel comfortable trying the song out with no rhythm or an idea of how the song flows, and frankly I need to HEAR the music! Isn't that just crazy?! I know I can use sign language and worship, but there is just something about lifting my voice in praise! So for Sundays, I sing the songs in my head/heart and I ache for the day that I can join in. So until then, when I am at home with my three little ones as my audience, oh do we worship!!!!!!!! I lift my voice and my kids join with me and we are L O U D even if the windows are open wide for our neighbors to hear! We sing songs from, This little light of mine to The B-I-B-L-E to Rejoice in the Lord Always to the kids favorite: This is the Day that the Lord has Made! I love my kids that they don't care if I am off tune and loud! God loves to hear us worship in so many ways, so I encourage one and all, join me in WORSHIPING HIM!


Oh and in case you're wondering, I have appointment with my doctor at the end of the month to discuss about my infection behind my eye at the end of the month and I hope to have that surgery done beginning June. My Cochlear Implant doctor wants me to heal for a month, so that puts me possibly end of June or beginning July to get my Cochlear Implant. I will then need to heal for a month and then possibly end of July or beginning August I can finally activate and HEAR! WHEW! We will keep praying and waiting (and worshiping!)

Side Note: Starting a homeschooling blog!

I want to dedicate this site to my cochlear implant journey, so for those of you who wanted to hear my random thoughts on homeschooling life, I started a new blog there: www.6feetand4paws.blogspot.com !

TRUST!

My CAT scan was last week and so my results came in today: the infection is still there. I am VERY disappointed and upset about this news. Today, I have been grumbling about having this surgery done. So tonight my husband ask me a very simple question, "Do you trust your doctor?" Yes of course I do, he is the best doctor there is and he knows what he is doing and he wants the best for me! So yes, I do trust him and I know this is what he wants me to do, so that I can be healthy for the implants. Then after thinking about this, hmmmmmmm...... there is actually a better doctor who REALLY knows me and wants the best for me!! Boy am I lucky I have Him! (smile) So tonight, with this grumbling heart, I give this to God!!! (oh and in case you're wondering, this means that infection surgery is this month and cochlear implants-we are looking about June to get the surgery done and to actually hear a month after that! (Just maybe I will hear the fireworks?!))